subconsciously wanting something.

one of the many reasons I love/hate Tumblr.

Here’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to stop dwelling. I’m going to stop watching the phone. I’m going to stop looking for you. I’m going to move on. I’m going to meet people. I’m going to live. I’m going to forget all the nights I spent wishing you were here. I’m going to forget the times that it was just us. I’m going to forget the things that shouldn’t have happened. I’m going to forget all the times I opened myself up to let you in, to only get hurt in return. I’m going to forget how I felt about you. Instead, I’m going to subconsciously wait. If you really want me, if you miss me, if you can’t breathe without me, you’ll know. You’ll ring. You’ll text. You’ll visit. And if you drift, if you don’t call, if there’s no texts, if there’s no visits. I’ll know. I’ll know it was never meant to be. And I will continue moving on. And I’m going to walk tall. But in between everything I will forget, I won’t forget the lesson I’ve learned. I won’t forget the feeling of loving someone. I won’t forget the feeling of thinking I’m loved. And I will certainly not forget the hell I was put through to learn all this, to become a better person.

Anyway, it's 2:12am already and I finally get to sleep! omg, I seriously need to lessen my load of procrastinating. Finally done with resume and cover letter :) I am kinda insecure about cover letter because I don't really know what is the name of the company I am applying for, couldn't find it in the job list! I hope it's what I think, pleasepleaseplease *cross fingers*

Wellwellwell, printed MA notes, packed bag for tomorrow, decided what to wear :)
I somehow love Wednesdays though lesson starts at 9am. I shall put eyeliner tomorrow :) I hope tomorrow will not be as hot as every other day> :)

It's crazy but I saw my peach nude lip gloss I got some time ago from Etude House and I applied it... yes, at 2am. I look weird, it looked weird on me but I am not going to throw it away. There must be an occasion that I can wear it!!! ^^ (zomg, positiveness~)

Btw, HK trip still on draft~ HAHAHA. mayans outing & SCOs barrage not even drafted. sorry~ maybe this wkend? or the next ^^v

I WANT EAT BAN MIAN TOMORROW! :D and I want stallberi pocky.
I am still learning how to put you away but I think I feel alot better now :)